Limerence or Love?

Every time my phone lights up

and her name appeared,

my mood suddenly changed,

and everything around felt like heaven.

I've reread her messages countless times,

replaying every conversation,

imagining a future between us

even though it lasted only a short while.

Then my mind began to twist

as hours passed without a reply.

I wondered if I said something wrong,

if she is losing interest,

and I found myself trapped

on an emotional roller-coaster.

She stayed inside my mind all day,

and my mood shifted with her words

One short reply made my heart dance;

and one silence filled my mind with grief.

For me, she was perfect, like a rare dream,

and even her smallest attention,

felt like an ocean of love and care.

My thoughts about her became intrusive,

persistent like a mental loop,

I could not escape.

I idealized her more than I truly knew her,

felt intense fear of rejection,

and tied my self-worth

to her attention and response.

Maybe it was love,

or maybe it was limerence.

I will never know what this is.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind

**Do not judge my life based on my poems; My Poems and my life are 2 different things.