My Heartland and The Tsunami

She made my heart so happy,

for one moment in my life

When she truly loved me once,

I could carry that moment forever.

My heart never had a chance,

though I fell for her deeply.

But she was never there to hold me.

maybe she felt victory

when she saw my tears.

I could have broken every wall

And let every bridge fall down,

But it was never her wish,

So my heart chose to stay still.

She is my first prayer each morning,

And my last thought each night.

If there were a god of smiles,

even they would envy hers.

Every morning I wake up

Searching for her who is no longer there.

Now I only hear her voice

In fading pieces of memory.

Now most of my life

is filled with thoughts of her.

I thought I had found someone

I could never live without,

But she taught me that I could.

The pain of losing her

Began like silent little waves

and slowly became a tsunami,

destroying my whole heartland.

Even in that destruction,

a part of her will stay

In every corner of my world.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind

**Do not judge my life based on my poems; My Poems and my life are 2 different things.