She Was A River of Love

I was day dreaming,

for a rainbow during summer.

I expected her to be,

the version existed in my mind.

My heart will never recover,

from the hurt she gave.

I was looking for comfort in her chaos

as it's become a routine now.

I was living in the illusion of desire,

and lost my reality in its fire.

My desire turned out to be the weapon,

for my life's destruction.

Her presence has become a beautiful part,

The thought of losing her was my deepest fear.

She once felt like my home, peace, and happiness,

So I prayed that our paths would never separate.

I wanted to be with her in a garden,

Watching flowers and being connected with nature.

But now I sit alone in a desert,

Watching the dead land as far as my sight falls.

I only seeked her presence in my life,

But she gave me her absence with grief.

She was a river of love,

Still left me to die of thirst.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind

**Do not judge my life based on my poems; My Poems and my life are 2 different things.