The Weight of Her Bond

I have smiled like an idiot,

When she passed through my thoughts.

I often grew distracted,

Forgetting the reason for my living.

I wanted to tell her so many things,

But I chose to show them instead.

When her hands are around me, it was heaven,

Her voice could make any day better.

She looked at me but failed to see,

She heard me many times but failed to listen,

She spoke to me but failed to be true,

Now I am left with a piece of her with me.

Even when the feeling of loss grew heavy,

The weight of the bond never became a burden.

I grieved the love she denied,

And the emotions she buried alive.

I romanticized the moments that hurt me,

And minimizing the pain they caused.

I just didn't see her, I witnessed her,

My eyes blurred what my mind refused to accept.

What I didn't say, turned into pressure and pain,

My heart collapsed, and my soul exhausted.

May she prosper with the love and care I gave,

For that was the only thing I ever wished for her life.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind

**Do not judge my life based on my poems; My Poems and my life are 2 different things.