When My Heart Bent

My "I love you",

Was never 'Don't leave me',

Nor did it mean 'You are mine',

It meant, I cherish you, but I do not own you.

I was never bargaining,

My love stood strong,

even when it wasn’t returned,

With empty hands, I was stunned.

My anger, and withdrawal

was never hate,

it was me saying, “I release you”,

to be wherever she wanted to be.

But deep within my mind,

lies a creepiest demon, it's not kind.

It wants to crawl often,

only to play with old emotions.

I knew from the start,

I will be broken by this.

Still, I trusted my heart

unafraid, believing she was the one.

I never thought she could be my ending,

Yet there I was, left alone

while my heart bent to her feet,

until it almost broke me.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind

**Do not judge my life based on my poems; My Poems and my life are 2 different things.