Finding My Way To Her Heart

I kept trying

to reach her thoughts,

a place

she never let me stay.

I tried to reach her heart too,

my haven

but that door,

she doesn't open for me.

I told myself to be strong,

to protect what I feel,

but the more I tried,

the more it hurts inside.

People say pain passes,

but this one stayed for a long.

Even hell would feel easier,

than carrying her in my silence.

She already has

my heart,

my thoughts,

everything I never said.

And I am left here

with whatever is still mine.

I was never enough

for her to notice

how simple

and how real

my love was.

I used to think

I would cross oceans for her.

But when she stood

just a few steps away,

I stopped.

Not because I couldn't go,

but because I felt,

my presence

might trouble her.

So I stay away from her.

Not everything we feel

is meant to become ours.

Maybe this was never my path.

Maybe some loves

are only meant to be carried,

not lived.

I will stay where life has kept me,

and slowly learn

how to live

without her, again.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind

**Do not judge my life based on my poems; My Poems and my life are 2 different things.