I Wish Not To See Her Again

I wish not to see her again,

The her in me is not the her now.

When I can love her absence so much,

I wonder how much more I would love her presence.

I don't want anyone to feel her absence,

So, I let her go for the ones she cares for.

For all the things and people she holds dear,

Have a place in her life, unlike me.

If I wanted I could have taken her away,

But I never wanted her only physically.

I tried to build a home in her heart,

And make a space within her thoughts.

Being with someone without love,

Is like living with the dead.

I wanted to feel alive with her,

To love, care and to protect.

I left the whole world for her,

And she left me, going too far.

I let her go so she could be happy,

But I keep everything she created in me.

If I see her again, I might steal her away,

From all the people she knows and cares for.

The her in me is truer than who she is now,

So I wish not to see her again.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind

**Do not judge my life based on my poems; My Poems and my life are 2 different things.