Romancing My Memories

I feel sad, as I don't have tomorrow,

Yet I still smile a little sometimes.

Because I had many yesterdays with her,

And now those are all I have.

Some people told her they'd stay like shadow,

Always behind her wherever she goes.

But I would have said,

I would stay with her, in light and in darkness.

When she was with me, I felt blessed,

Like the gods had given me a boon.

But when she left,

I felt like it was all a test from the devils.

Before her, I controlled my feelings,

After her, my feelings controlled me.

She took away my peace, my sleep, my smile,

And left silence in their places.

I didn't just fall in love with her

I was flying high without fear.

When she walked away from me,

I didn't fall... I crashed.

Now I don't love her, I don't hate her.

I just sit alone sometimes.

In quiet moments of my heart,

I romanticize my memories of her.

By

SAnji-Paul Arvind

**Do not judge my life based on my poems; My Poems and my life are 2 different things.