Damage of My Soul

I will never lose her,

from the place where I kept her.

My love for her made me walk on clouds,

and dream of reaching the moon.

I learned to love her,

without any expectation.

Distance may keep us from seeing or touching,

but it can never break the connection.

My humbleness was not weakness,

it was my strength, and my love,

I could fall to my knees for her,

no matter the cost.

I believed in her without a doubt,

now I no longer believe in belief itself.

Her loss not just break me,

but it changed how I understand trust.

I am holding onto someone,

who does not exist anymore.

I whisper to her absence,

telling it how much I miss her.

She means so much to me

that I even love her shadow.

She is my most painful absence

and my most beautiful memory.

My soul has suffered enough damage

from all that she did to it.

I only wish she won't treat me this way,

in any other lifetime.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind

**Do not judge my life based on my poems; My Poems and my life are 2 different things.