She and Her Connection's

She connects with random people

Like they have all won a raffle.

But with me she is always hesitant,

Even when I tried and was persistent.

She ignored the one who truly cared,

Left me unseen and to shatter.

I did all I could to make her happy,

But she stayed sad, and felt heavy.

I too am a normal person,

But with me, she changes for no reason.

Not too warm, not too cold,

Left me incomplete and to feel mild.

She said that she was grounded,

Still somehow left me wounded.

She spoke in words of spirituality,

But somehow she made me feel guilty.

She claimed she spreads only light,

Yet pushed me darker into my plight.

I never knew her self-love was shared,

Or if with me it was never meant to be there.

She showed her care to the world,

But punished me for asking her bold.

I wasn’t asking for more than others,

I was just asking for the same.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind

**Do not judge my life based on my poems; My Poems and my life are 2 different things.