My Expectation Led Me to My End

I never wanted her to understand me,

I just wanted her to feel and to see my truth.

My heart didn't break because of her.

it broke because I ignored the truth.

I was expecting peace in a storm

and happiness inside anxiety.

I was expecting loyalty in emotional market,

and respect from a life without feelings.

I was expecting sunlight in the night night,

and a cool breeze in the hot summer.

I loved her truly and fully,

but her heart didn’t know love, only hate for me.

I was expecting love from a person,

when I should have felt it from her soul.

I was expecting comfort in hell,

and trying to reach heaven while still suffering.

I was expecting real attachment from manipulation,

And trying to escape from reality.

These mistakes broke me inside,

And now I don’t know who to truly cherish.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind

**Do not judge my life based on my poems; My Poems and my life are 2 different things.