The Her, That My Mind Created

I only saw her a few times,

just a brief conversation.

I noticed her from a distance,

and suddenly she started occupying my thoughts

more than she probably should have.

I found myself wondering what she is like,

imagining future conversations,

and feeling excited whenever I saw her.

I knew very little about her,

her personality, her values,

her habits,or her goals,

yet I felt strongly drawn to her.

I developed feelings for her,

even though most of it was just imagination.

My mind started writing stories about her,

about what a relationship with her could be like.

I was attracted more to the version of her

that I created in my mind.

That imagined version slowly became more appealing

than the real her.

My feelings were based on possibility, not reality.

Her presence created excitement and anticipation,

triggering a sense of happiness within me.

Emotionally, it felt very real and enjoyable,

and somewhere inside I felt I needed this feeling

to continue in my life.

She slowly became the focus of my attention,

even though I knew very little about her.

The more I was around her,

the more familiar she felt.

And familiarity created comfort,

which slowly turned into attraction,

and her attraction turned into affection.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind