I Am Sorry

I am sorry that I loved you truly,

and never stopped to ask how you felt.

I am sorry that I cared so deeply,

expecting nothing in return

except your happiness.

I am sorry that I wanted

to build a place in your heart

that felt like home.

I am sorry for being genuine,

for my love was honest,

and it was pure.

I am sorry that I wished only

for your happiness, until I forgot

how to find my own.

I am sorry that I gave you

all my time, while I was slowly

running out of it.

I am sorry that I could not love you

in a way you could receive,

even though I gave you everything I had.

I am sorry that my love felt like a burden to you,

when all I ever wanted was to be your comfort.

But now...

I am sorry that you made me feel

small enough to question my own worth.

I am sorry for the pain you left behind,

long after you had already walked away.

I am sorry that, because of you,

I began to believe I was unworthy of love.

I am sorry that my love, my care,

and my kindness were never returned.

I am sorry that you hurt me so deeply

that healing now feels like learning to live

with a heart that remembers everything.

And perhaps the greatest apology

I owe is not to you, but to myself,

for loving someone who could never hold

the love I carried.

You will never know

my "I Am Sorry" meant only one thing

I never wanted to lose you.

But I am sorry that I lost you.

- Sanji-Paul Arvind