I Loved Her Anyway

I wanted to make life easier for her,

even if it meant making mine harder.

I never counted what I gave,

because seeing her smile

was enough for me.

But sometimes, gratitude fades.

People forget

the sacrifices made for them,

and only remember

what you could not give.

People do not always change

because of love.

Sometimes they only act better

when they need you.

The deepest wounds are often given

by the people we trusted the most.

Some create the problem,

pull us into it, and in the end,

make us the villain

while they become the victim.

Kindness, care, and unconditional love

are often not valued.

They are simply used.

And the day you say "No,"

or choose yourself,

you suddenly become the bad person

in their story.

So in the end,

I did not just lose a relationship.

I lost the person

I loved with all my heart.

I still miss her.

Yet she may never even think of me.

That truth hurts.

She walked away

as if I had meant nothing.

I walked away too,

not because I stopped loving her,

but because I knew

I could never force someone to stay.

Maybe one day she will look for me

in someone else.

She may search for the same care,

the same patience, the same love.

But she will never find it.

The person I was when I loved

was the bestest version of myself.

I hope I will not see that day,

truly I cannot see her like that,

I will be gone, not with anger,

not with hate, but with silence.

Even when I knew we were never meant to be,

I loved her honestly.

Every conversation, every smile, every moment.

And if I had to choose again,

I would still choose to love her,

because my love was real,

even if our story was never meant to last.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind