I Lost My Version Along With Her

I fell in love,

but she fell into distraction

and worldly validation,

as she felt those were more precious

than my love.

When I see her smiling with someone else,

I only wonder

if she ever thinks of me.

I only wish that when I see or hear her name,

it doesn't hurt me anymore,

and that I can find peace

where pain resides now.

All those pointless conversations

only mattered

because I was talking with her.

Now I cannot talk to others

the way I spoke with her.

Now I still talk,

but to her absence,

and all I hear is silence...

a silence that tells me

that she will never return.

I lost the only person

that I wished to be part of my inner world.

I can no longer give myself

to anyone

the way I gave myself to her.

She was the only person

I showed my true version to,

with my fears, my anger,

my happiness, my sadness,

all of them.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind