My Heart as an Experiment

Once upon a time,

there lived a girl,

with an innocent face

and a comforting charm.

There was a time

when I never knew her.

Then, on an ordinary day, we met.

We spoke for no reason.

Somehow, there was a connection,

and I never knew

those conversations would leave

a permanent mark on me.

If I could keep just one memory of her,

it would be her smile.

Every time I saw her smile,

my heart exploded with happiness.

My mind felt as if it were high,

and the weight of her breath

could bring me down

from everything else in the world.

I loved her even when I knew

there was no future for us.

I didn't think, I didn't hesitate.

I simply loved her with all that I had.

I wish I had been prepared

to watch her move on

as if I had never existed.

To watch her be happy

while I am still trying to survive.

When I gave my heart

as an offering,

she treated it as if I had given it to her

to play and experiment with it,

only to see how many times

it could break.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind