When In Love...

I became more protective of her happiness

my days were affected by her mood.

My constant thought was

what could I do better to make her happy?

And suddenly my priorities were about her well-being,

my emotional investment was increasing day by day,

and I was unable to control or stop myself.

Even when I was normal with others,

with her I became a complete idiot.

I forgot what I was doing or talking about,

I would smile often without any reason.

I felt an increase in my emotional excitement,

and all the small interactions felt intense.

I was living in a future with her,

a home, a family, a movie,

a life I wanted to live together.

A strange thing about this love was that

my brain started thinking about

and building a future with her,

a future I never even knew was possible.

My brain was doing more

than making me feel butterflies.

Now, when I think of the past,

I realise how being in love

made even the strangest behaviors

feel completely normal.

By

Sanji-Paul Arvind